some life notes.
silly post about how happy i am / life updates!!
havin lots of introspective feels about 2013 & the upcoming 2014. my main goals are just to be more creative and meet lots of different kinds of people & fill my life with positive energy through art, poetry and skating :~)
*takes deep breath
why didn’t yoU LOVE ME LIKE YOU SAID YOU DID??? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT CONSTANTLY??? WHY WEREN’T YOU WILLING TO SACRIFICE JACK SHIT FOR ME??? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME CRY FOR 12 HOURS??? BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY AT THE END OF ALL THIS BULLSHIT
why do i still miss you more than anything in the world?
enormously personal and silly.
'grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, change the things i cannot accept, and the wisdom to know the difference.'
i need to change the parts of my life i can and just let go of the parts i cannot. i focus all my energy in the unmovable, insignificant aspects of my life and not on what i really need to focus on. the first step is wanting change, the second is fully directing that change on what matters, on what’s actually possible.
this year has been so strange and draining for me, and i guarantee more shit will get thrown at me before the year starts over again.
i’ve spent the last few years wishing the next will be better, the best. but i think it’s time to grow up and realize that everything is just hard work & sore feet with no one at home to rub them at the end of the day. but you have to fill the gaps in between yourself, radiate positive vibes and energy, admit slip ups and foul moods but resolve to make the next day, hour, minute, better.
you don’t have to wait for the calendar to better yourself.